so there is this guy i really liked for about 2 years but we were friends and one day he was very mean to me in a fight and i stopped talking to him completely after that. yesterdaynight i wrote in my journal how im ovwr him and went to sleep to wake up having a dream about him. the dream was: we were going home after exams and it was a rainy day, we were sitting on the bus, we had some shared glances but i refused to seak to him. then thre was a conversation with little kids on how the american and indian education is very similar regarding portions and he quickly roed me into the conversation and i did side him in the end. now the scene transformed for when we were waiting for another bus to come pick us up, same day and we were sitting under a banyan tree and he was to call his parents but his mom didnt pick the call and the bus driver said, cal your mom again, she has the main number and he says my dad also has the main number , he said something, and i spoke about the love between his parents and he grumbled and said something like love is the last thing between his parents and when i asked him further about it, he rudely asked me to quit doing that, then we had a conversation about the fight that led me to stop talking to him, i said he was never serious about our fights or never really valued me, he never owned his actions and he acted so nonchalant so i frusratedly dropped the topic. then i leaned on him for which he rudely pushed me away and he asked me not to and i embarassedly said it was a tree branch and we left it. 2 minutes later, he asks with a playful smile, his voice coarse in the dream now, our hands brushed, and he said something around the lines of "if i did take u seriously and own our arguements what we'll be?" and i muttered"if u took me seriously and owned arguments we would be something else" and then he softly shared about his cousin brother who was in trouble with the law and then my school bus came and i had to leave so i asked him to call me or text sometime and lest, with one last glance
Dreams about people we have strong feelings for can often reflect our subconscious thoughts, feelings, and unresolved issues related to them. Your dream about this guy, particularly given the context of your relationship and the journal entry about moving on, has several layers to consider.
Processing Past Feelings: The dream seems to indicate that you are still processing your feelings about this person and the unresolved conflict between you two. Your ability to speak about the fight in the dream suggests you are starting to confront those feelings rather than suppressing them.
Education as a Metaphor: The conversation about the American and Indian education systems might symbolize a desire for connection and understanding. Education can represent personal growth, and your involvement in the conversation might indicate that you are recognizing areas in your life where you wish to grow or where you seek a deeper understanding of interpersonal relationships.
The Banyan Tree: This tree often symbolizes longevity, stability, and shelter. Sitting under the tree could represent a desire for emotional safety and a space to reflect on your past relationship. It might also symbolize a need for grounding amid emotional chaos.
Conflict and Resolution: The repeated themes of conflict (the fight and your frustrations) illustrate your inner turmoil regarding this relationship. Expressing your feelings about being undervalued points to an important realization about your self-worth and how you wish to be treated.
Touch and Distance: The moments where you lean on him and then are pushed away can reflect your conflicting desires for closeness and the fear of rejection. It suggests a struggle between wanting to maintain a connection and recognizing what hurt you in the past.
Potential for Change: The dialogue towards the end of the dream hints at a ‘what if’ scenario, indicating that part of you still wonders what might have been if circumstances had been different. His playful smile may represent a hope that despite past conflicts, there's an avenue for a better relationship or friendship in the future.
Final Farewell: The dream ending with you leaving and asking him to contact you can signify that you are ready to move on but wish to keep the door open for potential resolution, understanding, or closure.
Overall, this dream encapsulates your feelings of transitioning from emotional attachment and confusion to a clearer view of your needs and desires. You are likely in a phase of emotional healing and self-discovery, acknowledging past hurt while also considering what the future may hold.